Holiday Fun

I've been having some holiday fun, flirting with some of my favourite people, and having a few more drinks that I normally do. I've eaten more chocolate in the last three days than I have in the last month! I'm going to have to start behaving, or go out an buy a whole new wardrobe!

I got to see The Hobbit in 3D, whilst snuggling with a man who insisted on teasing me during the lulls ;) And then I learned all about how the 40FPS technology lent to my visual distraction during the first half of the movie! I love to learn new things!

I'm trying to save some of my tip money and gift money to put into my new apartment (moving in March!), so I didn't do the Boxing Day sales this year, which means I may not end up getting myself a new external Terra-byte drive any time soon....

I've enjoyed a recent spike in Gentleman Callers, and have been balancing my social life accordingly. I have greatly enjoyed my time with each of them, and am loving having some new pics for my Twitter Following. 

Now to get MiLash over here for her gift, and some hanky panky.... ;)

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Live Cast!

Hey guys! So, I've been experimenting with technology, and it has lead me to creating a playlist of Live Cast videos on YouTube entitled "Hanging on the Air". The first couple of videos are a bit boring, and the sound quality sucks, but hey! I gotta start somewhere!

I actually slept for over half of the 4 hour cast today *blushes* so after dinner, I'm going to Live Cast my homework for my upcoming photo-shoot with Naughty Toronto; showcasing the outfits I want to use for the shoot. So you can look forward to that in a bit! Tell all of your friends! ;)

Don't forget! Donations are always welcome via PayPal! (TheNerdyCompanion@Gmail.Com)

See you soon!

Catching Up

Good morrow, my lovelies!

I've been slacking on the Nerdy Companion stuff, I know. However, life has a way of demanding attention from time to time ;)

I've also been having some issues logging into the admin side of my website, so the upkeep that I've wanted to do there is on hold until I take the time to get that sorted.

However! Do to fan suggestions and requests, you can look forward to some of the following updates:

-Membership: To include Member's only live stream events, member's only newsletters including erotica content and special photo sets, "chance to win" offers, and much, much more!

- Video content: Free teasers, and paid downloads.

- Ask Me Anything scheduled events on Ask.fm

-Where to find me, around Toronto, listed event/place attendance.

-Guest bloggers

-Vlogs on YouTube

-Guest Vloggers

-Duo video sessions

-Clips4Sale Amateur porn vids via PornoMike (filming events to be announced)

-Seasonal and other photo sets via Naughty Toronto

-Apprenticeship offers

-Angie's Sub for the Day offers

And much, much more!

Twitter Soapbox

I've recently gotten really excited about Follow Fridays on Twitter. While I am aware that this makes me a complete nerd, there are also some business merits to consider.

When comparing Facebook to Twitter, this is the analogy I have been making: Posting something on Facebook is like hosting an intimate gathering in your living room and making a speech. You'll reach the people in your room, and they may or may not pass it on to the people they have over next day.
Inversely, Twitter is like holding a Town Meeting, and giving a speech that is being broadcast live to all of the News stations around the world. You reach a broader audience, and have a much likelier chance of someone else passing your information along.

There is a fine art to Tweeting successfully. Hashtags should be treat as your SEO (search engine optimization) markers. Though there is also something to be said about being cutsie with them from time to time. ;)

Retweeting people who have a large fan basis, or conversing with them is a great way to garner new followers. However, the key to a plush follower list seems to be a Follow Friday routine. Here's my secret.

Everyone whom I follow who isn't a standard pop culture celebrity, or is someone I know doesn't want a shit ton of anonymous strangers following them, gets put into a tweet structured like this: #FF #9Tails #Toronto @Aphrodizia_ca @GabrieleAngel @Denof9Tails @SylvieGothika @lady_shayne @rubymoans @The_Mad_MiLASH

I have a document that I update about once every two months to include new people that I'm following, and excluding anyone that I've stopped following. Then I just have to copy/paste them all into place on Friday morning.

It's good practice to @reply to anyone who has retweeted you. If you can strike up a conversation, you may even get a follow back! In fact, I've recently cultivated a Twitter Friendship with someone who will retweet my promo tweets when I give her the heads up. This may or may not become a regular thing. But even if it was only a one time thing, that's still getting the word out there!

It the event that you don't believe that all of this effort is worth it, let me leave you with this tidbit: in the days since I have implemented this practice, I have more than doubled my following. You be the judge.

Home Sweet Home!

After a refreshing vacation to the North Country to visit friends and family, I am very glad to be home, bug bites and all :P

I love my family, but it is good to be back in the land of fiber-optic internet and proper indoor plumbing! I cannot tell you what a relief it is to shower with full water pressure, and without the worry that I'm going to run out of hot water any minute! My skin is very happy to be away from hard water that reeks of sulfur!

However, my arms and heart are already aching for the kids...And it's difficult not to miss the clean air and brilliant night sky. And the camp fires! Let's not forget the campfires!

I spent my days wandering through the gardens, chatting with my folks, floating on the pond in a little rubber dingy, and running around with the kids, laughing our fool heads off. It was wonderful and recharging.

It will take me a few days to get used to not having so many people around, but I'll settle back into my half introvert, half extrovert existence quite nicely, I think.
Oh! I brought home a surprise! Stay tuned and I'll tell you all about it in the upcoming days ;)

Pirate Party!

I'm greatly looking forward to our Pirate themed Play Party tomorrow night! Highlights will include myself trussed up on a bed with a donation bucket on one side and condoms on the other! ;) Here's your chance to make use of a glutenous cum bucket!

Are you as excited as I am to see all of the sexy Pirate outfits? The only things that make me wetter are Vampires and Jeeps! ;)

Come on down to the Upper Beaches area, near Victoria Park Ave and Kingston Road here in Toronto, and mingle with the sexiest scallywags in town!

http://denofninetails.com/pirates/

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Mark It Up! - After the Party

Wow! What a great time!

We saw some new faces, and some great participation from the guests! There was a lot of exhibitionism going on! Just what we like to see!

Highlights of my evening include being invited to express my Dominant side on one hapless young lady who was trussed to a St Andrew's Cross, spread-eagle and blindfolded, as well as entertaining the crowd with as an impromptu stunt-butt for a gentleman testing out the finger floggers for the first time.

Immediately after that, I was put under the spell of our very own MLady Cat. If I do say so myself, we have a scintillating chemistry between us! I'll bear those scrapes a bruises for a few more days ;)

Be sure to make it out on August 2nd while I host my first party without the Headmistress around! Let's see what kind of mischief we can get up to!

Ask Me Anything

I recently hosted an Ask Me Anything on Reddit.  During the course of having done so, I was approached by the co-founder of Revolve Magazine.  He loved what I had posted, and wanted me to write a submission to a book that they are putting together; a collection of short unconventional lessons and stories. I mistook his directions as 1400 words, as opposed to 1400 characters (only 300 words), and so this is the first draft that I produced for him. I thought it was apt to publish it here.

I'd like to add that I began the AMA in response to the new proposed BillC36. I'm not usually one to tout my ideological beliefs in a public forum, but this demanded some reaction.

So here is, for your consumption, my thoughts on Prostitution. Please feel free to ask further questions in the comments section. I would be thrilled to answer them in a future post such as this.
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Hello. My name is Angie Nash. I am 28 years old, and I have been a sexworker since I was 24.

When my parents ask me what I do for a living, I tell them that I help people. I am a Life Coach, as well as the Administrative Assistant for a friend’s small business. Which is as close to the truth as they can handle, being small town people. However, my full job description is slightly more convoluted than all that.

I am a Professional Companion, and Professional Switch. This means that my list of services combines the skills of a Life Coach and a Call Girl and adds some Fetish and Kinky fun for those clients who desire that sort of thing.

I am affiliated with a Dungeon here in Toronto, called the Den of Nine Tails. We host themed Play Parties the first Saturday of every month, as well as other events such as a casual smokers night, foot fetish nights, foodie parties, and more.

My role at Nine Tails is two fold. As a ‘Cat’ of Nine Tails, I pay a membership that grants me access to each of the parties where I can mix and mingle with prospective clients. I also donate my time to help setup and cleanup for events, as well as act as hostess or door person.

On the flip side, I am also Personal Assistant to the CEO of Den of Nine Tails. My opinion is heavily weighed on matters of policy and procedure. I also play a heavy role in the administrative aspects of Nine Tails, such as crafting the written media that we send out into the world, whether it be blog posts, event listings, flyers, or emails.

I recently hosted an Ask Me Anything post on Reddit. I’m not generally one to tout my philosophical or political ideals in public forums. However, the new proposed BillC36 seems to be designed for a world in which no woman in her right mind would choose to prostitute herself short of being forced to, or having no other means of supporting herself. Excuse me while I beg to differ.

I am a (mostly) healthy young woman who is secure in her own skin, and very promiscuous. I enjoy sex, sexuality, and sensuality. I am a trained sub and Domme. I am an effective Life Coach. I don’t just lay on my back and spread my legs. I work hard for my money! I enjoy working with a client to explore their own minds and bodies. I love to hear that I have helped a client to overcome some personal obstacle.

I have worked what Society insists on calling ‘normal’ jobs. I am well skilled and easily employable. In fact, I often feel bad watching so many of my friends struggle to find a job that they enjoy, when I have loved and excelled at every job that I have ever had. I had to quit my last job (climbing the ladder towards management at a call centre) due to health complications. I have a long term illness called Fibromyalgia.

Now, before you start thinking that the Fibro is a factor meaning that ‘I have no other means of supporting myself’, let me assure you that many people suffering from Fibromyalgia have full and gratifying jobs. Just look at Morgan Freeman.

I am a sexworker because I WANT to be a sexworker. I want to live in a world where sexwork is considered ‘legitimate’ work. If a man can make money slinging boxes because he is strong and likes manual labour, why is it so wrong for a female (or someone of any gender) who loves herself and her body (most of the time) to share that with other people and make money at it?

I grew up in a world where prostitution was considered taboo, sinful, dirty, and even illegal. I have not let that stop me from chasing my dreams, from jumping into the creation of Den of Nine Tails with both feet. We are striving to create a safe, luxurious and clean space in which people can meet and share their interests in all things sensual and sexual. We want to create a place where people can network and share skills and information without fear of harsh judgement nor direct ridicule. Ours is a goal of community and mutual aide.

If you've read some of my other posts, you'll find a theme: I love sex, sure, but I also love Humanity. I want to learn as much as I can about it. And I feel that sexuality and sensuality are a healing tool. I want to help people.

Ha! My job is significantly more than simply lying on my back. It's one of the most labor and emotionally intensive jobs I've ever had. Add the administrative aspects of my job, and it's also one of the more cerebral jobs I've ever had.

It takes a lot of hard work and dedication to build a Sex Workers Co-op and Adult Club from the ground up, so you'll have to excuse me if I disagree with those that tell me to get off of my sleazy ass and get a ‘normal job’.

Normal is an obsolete word. I don't find doing for pay, something which I enjoy and am good at, and would be doing on my free time anyway, a sleazy way to make money. How is what I do different than massage therapy, or any other therapeutic profession?

I should also mention that I have two much younger sisters, as well a couple of nephews.I love kids. In a recent Question and Answer forum, I had someone more or less accuse me of being a poisonous influence on the younger generation. While I am a recruiter for Den of Nine Tails, I specifically avoid talking about how to get started in sexwork in a public forum because I don't want anyone doing this because they think it's the easy way out, or because it sounds cool.

I recruit those already active in kink or sex work. I'm not a conscriptor, nor a drafter. I wish to introduce people to a safe and supportive environment where they can do what they love, not telling them to quit their job and start turning tricks. I'm not saying that you should spend your life savings, or the money for your kid's future on a call girl. I'm saying, if massage therapy, or hypnosis, or drinking yourself into oblivion isn't working for you, maybe try something a little less self destructive.

I do not expect the nay sayers to give up their point of view, nor their opinions. I would prefer that they accept that it is just that: One view, and one opinion, as opposed to fact. I am not ashamed of myself, nor my chosen profession. I am a very successful human being, and have likely successfully overcome more obstacles in the past three years than most people do in a decade.

In the event that you are thinking to yourself, “That’s all well and good for you. but what about those of us with body image issues?”, let me assure you, I am not at ease with mine. I spend several hours a week in varying stages of undress in front of other people, a camera, or, Gods forbid, in a public setting. I struggle every day to accept that others find my body beautiful, that I am beautiful, with varying degrees of success. The only way to conquer your demons is to face them. So here I tread, in all my naked glory!

In closing, I say to you, do what you love! No matter who you’re going to disappoint, offend, or alienate! If it is something that you are passionate about, then go for it! It will be worth all of the opposition, all of the burned bridges, and all of the dissenting opinions!

Training Day - Follow Up

I got to be the Stunt Butt for Mad Milash as M'Lady Cat taught her the Do's and Don't's of Impact Play. Milash wielded several floggers, an acrylic cane, a wooden paddle, and Cat's custom hand carved wooden toy that left little kiss shaped welts on the side of my thigh :P

For the entire post and more pictures, Click here!

Training Day!

I'm all excited to get to do some training with one of our lovely Dommes! M'Lady Cat will be putting Mad Milash and myself through our paces this afternoon.

It's been a while since I've worked on my Domme or sub skills, as I've been throwing myself into the admin side of things. Not that I'm not enjoying that and all of the rewards that it entails! It's great to be able to cross off a long list of accomplishments at the end of the day :) However, but skin is tingling with anticipation for Cat to get her claws into me ;)

Stay posted for details and photos in a follow up post!

Ask & You Shall Receive

If you're anything like me, you've hesitated to ask your partner to indulge you in certain aspects of kink or fetish because you're not sure that they'd be comfortable with it. I'm here to tell you that the only way you're going to get a yes, is by asking.

Some of the more nerve racking requests I've ever made:

-Can I puke on you?
-Can I pee on you?
-Will you choke me?
-Will you tell me I'm worthless?
-Will you hold me down and 'rape' me?
-Will you threaten to get me pregnant?
-Will you threaten to kill me when you're done?
-Will you threaten to feed me to the dogs when you're done?
-Will you share me with your friends like a common cum bucket?
-Will you threaten to tell my friends and family what I let you do to me?
-Will you hit me until I cry?
-Will you gag me with your cock until I vomit?
-Can I call you Daddy?
-Will you call me Mommy?
-Can we pretend to be siblings?

So please, don't be afraid to ask me, or any of my fellow pros here at Den of Nine Tails, for your innermost desire. The worst that will happen is we'll say no.

New Products & Services!

Hurray! Now that I've got some minions to help out with the Administrative Details of Den of Nine Tails (hereunto referred to as Adminions), I have time to do some more fun things for my loyal following!

Starting RIGHT NOW, you can purchase a pair of my used panties, or send me a special pair to wear and send back to you! Photographic catalog will be up by the end of the week!

I am now also offering text based Role Play sessions! You can purchase a block of time, or a block of text!

Check here for pricing details!

Feral Play

One of the things that I enjoy in my personal play time that I don't often get requested from a

Client, is Feral Play. We're talking growling, biting, clawing, and scampering around on all fours,

and of course, hair pulling and all of the rest still applies ;)

For me, this kind of play lets me drop down to a primal level of my brain where there is very little

responsibility. It also brings be closer to subspace from the outset, so I get there quickly and

often.

Now, all of this physical ferocity does not mean that you are going to come out of this battered

an bruised. I am well trained. I am able to engage in said play without leaving marks on the

body of my assailant.

In fact, I recently was the plaything of a friend and came out looking like I'd been mauled by a

Lion with not a scratch nor bite on the other party. That's without a gag or any other type of

bondage! *brags*

So please, remember to never be afraid to ask for something, and negotiate the details. We can

hopefully always find a way to accommodate your deepest desires!

To book an appointment, email me at TheNerdyCompanion@gmail.com

"Just a Phase"

I've been asked several times if I think that this work I do at the Den of Nine Tails is 'just a

phase'. Well, let's see. I was told at 17 that being bi­sexual was 'just a phase'. At 28, I think I've

proven that it is not a phase. I was told at 19, when I had my first open relationship, that this was

'just a phase'. I have now upgraded to being fully Polyamourous. So, again, not a phase.

I have been actively into kink for the past four years. I've been in a live­in sub, and am now

living with the shoe on the other foot, living with my submissive. I have been a Companion for

the last 2 years, and have now teamed up with the Dungeon, giving me access to all kinds of

networking and educational opportunities. Not to mention a whole slew of neat toys and

equipment ;) I wake up every day amped to go to work, even if it's just to sit at the computer all

day. I have a job doing what I love and helping others. What about this screams of a phase?

I get the good kind of butterflies before every Party, every Scene, every Workshop, and every

Client. I hope that never changes.

For Fun & Profit

Despite the fact that "Ain't No Rest For the Wicked" is my self declared theme song as a

Companion, and while I do have bills to pay, I've chosen to work as a Companion for reasons

beyond the all mighty buck. It irks me when people voice the dissenting thought of 'sex workers

do it because they can't do anything else!' Bullshit!

Now, don't get me wrong, I am sure that there are plenty enough people out there that are

feeding the stereotype. However, just like not all Jews are cheap, not all Blacks are drug

dealers, and not all Middle Easterners are terrorists, not all Sex Workers are strung out crack

whores turning cheap tricks to feed their habits.

So now you're thinking, "Okay, Angie, then why do you do it? For fun & profit?"

What I do as a Companion stems from the wish to help others. I am largely service oriented, but

I am also a problem solver. I've been helping friends and family to organize their lives for years.

To become, and remain motivated. To feel better about themselves. To polish their social skills.

To explore their humanity, and their sexuality (well, more friends than family for this one ; ) ). As

it turns out, I'm pretty good at it ; ) So now I've polished my skills to the point where I feel

comfortable offering my services professionally. I also train others to do what I do. I'm not

looking to corner the market. I'm looking to help and teach whoever wants to be helped and

taught.

In fact, it is my dream to someday have so many Clients and Apprentices that we'll need a

second location! Just imagine; Nine Tails Toronto at Beaches, Nine Tails Toronto Downtown,

and down the road, Nine Tails Kitchener, Nine Tails London, Nine Tails Ottawa. The possibilities

are endless!

After all of that other stuff, yes, for fun & profit : P

Party Teaser - Rubber Ducky

We're barely recouped from the Niagara Road Trip, and already we're planning the next party at the Den of Nine Tails!

The regular date for our monthly parties shall be the first Saturday of every month. May 3rd's party shall run with the theme of Rubber Ducky! All things Rubber or all things Ducky! Seems appropriate for spring ; )

I'm thinking of going Little for the event...

Remember to send your RSVP's to RSVP@DenOfNineTails.Com for a $5 discount on entry!

Niagara Falls Road Trip - Day Three

Wow! Our last night was a huge hit! We had no less than four new people try out the Vac Bed! I was kept busy cleaning it between sessions, as well as having my wicked way with our willing participants! It looks like we've got a few faces we can hope to see on a regular basis to our parties, and workshops! And my red bikini and sarong were a big hit with one and all ; )

I crawled into bed around one a.m. after having been crawling around using ice, the Hitachi, hands, and mouth with my Vac Bed Victims and then stowing it away in it's bag for easy portability to the car in the morning. I went to bed randy as all get out!

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Niagara Falls Road Trip - Day Two

Day two began a little slower. My body required extra time to limber up after climbing in and out of the Vac Bed all evening, either demoing, or cleaning it. The change in weather has also given me a migraine, making me wish I could remember who had offered me a massage last night!

We had three brave souls try out the Vac Bed, and each of them confessed that it was a way better experience than they had imagined, and not nearly as terrifying. It also helps that our particular model allows your entire head to be in open air.

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Niagara Falls Road Trip - Day One

I suppose that today is technically day two, though yesterday was comprised largely of simply trying to find some place to eat, and settling into our hotel room. Though we did take plenty of pictures of Mara Dyne and I trying on some new lingerie we picked up, as well as messing around in the in-room Jacuzzi ; ) (See my Twitter or Fetlife for those shots!)

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After the Party

Well! Our first party here at the Den of Nine Tails has come and gone!

All who attended looked to have been having a wonderful time! We saw some familiar faces, as

well as a few new ones, which is always lovely to see :) There were some lovely costumes, and

certainly some lovely outfits!

We received some high praise for our "relaxed, friendly, and funny" staff, as well as hosting an

event that did not seem "too contrived". The one complaint we seem to be getting from

everyone is that they were so exhausted the next day from all the fun! :D

Some of the highlights of the evening were, our own Azura Rose did a demonstration on the

Sybian, as well as autofallatio. I myself submitted to a good ass beating. Pookie, our bartender,

ended up with her lovely bosom exposed. I ended up running around in nothing but my necklace

and polka dotted thong. Mistress was released from her straight jacket towards the end of the

evening, to reveal a scintillating purple fishnet body stocking. Miss Sylvie Gothika abandoned

her red courset in favour of being bare chested. Mara Dyne was dudded up in her militaristic

outfit, and much much more!

Check out my Twitter feed or Fetlife for photos!

Thank you for your support to all who attended and to all who helped out! Contributions to our

donations bucket totaled $97! That will go towards setting up our video page (Coming soon!)

Stay tuned for details on our next event!

Let's Talk About Body Image

A question that I don't hear very often is, "Do you feel secure in your own skin? Do you have

any body image issues?"

People assume that because I am a sex worker, because I appear nude on camera, because I

come across as so self confident, that I couldn't possibly have any issues in these areas. *cue

sarcastic laughter*

Even when I was in high school, and was lithe and athletic, I was self conscious of my body.

Even if I had that body today, I would still be self conscious. When you grow up being bullied,

your looks are often the first thing that come under attack. For a young girl, some of those things

stick.

One of those thoughtless things that was said was "Thunder Thighs". Years later, a compliment

that has become the counter balance to that thought was as follows: During a conversation with

one of the first Doms that I ever got involved with, I asked him what the first thing that drew him

to me was. Keeping in mind that we met when I was working at a café. My typical work attire

was yoga pants and a 'wife beater'. His response was "The first thing I thought was 'Wow,

there's a pair of thighs a man could get lost between'."

So that's the kind of thing I try to keep in mind when I'm running around in short shorts, or a mini

skirt, or just my panties, or nothing at all. It's the thing I try to cling to when I'm dreading the

thought of having to go clothes shopping, or, heaven forbid, purchase my first bikini.

I spend a fair amount of time re­watching the footage of porn I've shot. Often spending an hour

at a time taking stills from the footage. I have described this as an exercise in self confidence. I

make the quip that I am slowly learning to see past the cottage cheese. But here's the stupid

thing. I don't find fault in other people's bodies! Only my own! I'm my own worst critic. I find all

body types appealing to some degree. I find small physical flaws like skin tags, or scars, or the

aforementioned cottage cheese, fascinating! I have an oral fixation and am a visual learner, so I

love things like that!

I don't fake orgasms, but the self confidence that I exude is something sorely won. There are

still some days that I don't want to look in the mirror, or wear anything revealing.

So please, if you're hesitating to give me, or any other sex worker or adult entertainer a

compliment, because you think that it will sound corny, or cheesy, or that we don't need that

little confidence boost, please remember that at the end of the day, we are people too. A kind

word goes a long way, cheesy or not :P

How I Discovered an Interest in BDSM

This is one of my favourite stories to tell *smirk*

I blame my Dad, and not in some twisted, incestuous, CAS ­involved way, so cool your jets!

For starters, one of Dad's favourite sayings as I was growing up, was, "Whip me, beat me, just

don't bore me!" Nuff said?

I was always an avid reader, reading things like Jack London's White Fang on my own by the

third grade. When I got to the 6th grade, Dad handed me a book called Raga Six. To this day, I

don't know if he did what he is sometimes notorious for, and simply skim read it, saw it was

about the occult, and decided I might enjoy it, or he just honestly didn't know that it involved

some really explicit, and even gruesome, sex scenes. It's sort of one of those questions that I

just don't want to know the answer to.

I was definitely turned on by said scenes. But to be honest, I can remember having what I can

now describe as Master/Slave fantasies when masturbating at the ripe age of 8. Make­believe

games with one female friend in particular always ended up with her being some poor victim

trussed up that I was to rescue from rape, or to be the rapist (her idea, but I was into it). I also

ended up trussed up and threatened with a (toy) knife at one point. Besides the fact that it

scared the hell out of me, it was certainly scintillating.

As I grew older, internal mantras when masturbating turned to things like, "You can't rape the

willing" and "Rape is just sex you didn't know you wanted". So apparently consensual non

consent was something that I wanted to experience. This was going on starting around age 16.

My first lover was mostly vanilla. A little light hair pulling and gentle spanking were about as far

as we got outside of 'normal'. Though we did 'swing' with another, older couple. My first attempt

with anal was with these two guys. But they were both a little too impatient, so I tapped out. Too

much pain.

Fast forward to age 22 when I started dating who I describe as the love of my life. I had read a

lot of books by this point, and some internet erotica. I knew that rough sex made me wet. That

power exchange was something I was into. So one day, I got brave, and asked him to spank

me. Now, I was braced for the initial "What the fuck?!" face. But that dragged out into a full two

minute stare down, It ended with me crying myself sick in the bottom of the shower, water on,

and clothes still on.

What can I say? Water is my safe place.

So when that relationship fell apart 2 years later, I began what I call my Year of Hell, during

which my number of sexual partners multiplied exponentially. I found my way into the company

of several different people who were of the Kink persuasion. I started some light training with a

couple of different Doms, touching on things like anal training, breath play, bondage, nipple

torture, bladder control, impact play, forced orgasms, and deep throating. Role play, including

Pet Play was also part of the adventure.

From there, I found a Dom who was willing to take me on on a live­in, permanent basis. He has

helped to open my eyes to a world of awesome kinkdom, and gave me a safe place to explore

all of those wonderful and perverse things. There are still some things I haven't tried, but there

are very few things which I am not interested in.

The rest, as they say, is history! ; )

Porn World Problems

For those of you who follow me on Twitter, you've probably seen me use the hashtag

"PornWorldProblems". For those of you who don't follow me, what the hell are you waiting

for!?!?

A few examples of Porn World Problems are as follows:

1­ Having to repaint my nails every two days to be camera ready

2­ Not being able to shave my head on a whim (handlebars required ;) )

3­ Not having the heart to get a full back tattoo (and ruin a perfectly good canvass???)

4­ Having non­coworker partners constantly feeling inadequate (Dude! it's not a competition!!!!)

I think there's a longer blog post there...

5­ Trying to pick something to wear for a scene, knowing it's going to spend 98% of it's time off

camera, on the floor

6­ Remembering to take my socks off!!!

7­ Having to explain to guys who have always been able to get a nude shot from me, that I'm a

professional now...

8­ Having to figure out a Vanilla story for what I do all day at "work"

9­ "Working" so hard that I barely have energy for other "life" activities (Note to self: do not ride

the Sybian the day before grocery shopping...)

10­ Not being able to keep track of the days of the week (Weekend? There's an end to a work

week?!?!)

Yes, there are some stories there. Stay tuned for those, and many more!

Furnal Equinox 2014

I started this post the day after the Con, and then promptly feel victim to the PLAGUE!

So, better late than never, here is my two cents about this year's Furnal Equinox.

I'll admit, I wasn't even planning on going to Furnal this year, but was then asked to gather some artist information for local artists who we might want to work with to have caricatures and other art done for the Den of Nine Tails. So I dressed to the nines (even did my own makeup!), and headed out to the Con with my faithful Kitty.

I saw some familiar faces, either from last year's Con, or from the Furry crowd in London or Toronto, betwixt which I split my time.

Special mentions go out to Coop, Strype, Ty, Spice, Serena, Alkane,  James of Twisted Buttons.Com (see my Twitter feed for the photos of the buttons I walked away with from their booth), and Babs (who sporting a brand new fur suit!).

Despite being a little overwhelmed by the crowd, I had a great time. Met some new friends, and caught up with some old ones. I even got a chance to speak with Dr. Spencer Reed! (Okay, so it wasn't really him, but it was a good ice breaker!)

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